random thoughts.

was looking thru some of the photos we took in 04 and 05.
WO SHI CHOU(UGLY) DE LOR!
from the first few outing when all of us not very shou,
until now shou dao lan.
somehow i cant rmb how the 6 of us come tgt.
its kinda weird.
cos in the first place we had our own clique.
and we form a new clique.
i sort of abandon my old clique cos im spending all my time with them.
i think overall quite happy.
then everyone got into different sch, different course.
get busy,
get attached.
somehow drifted.
just like me.
i haven't meet up with them since national day!
but i know they will still love me de!

me angie and ping was once so happy too.
screaming the song "superstar" on our way to cine.
bitching abt every single person we met with our "dingdongdingdong/tneh tneh tneh".
our favourite hangout: starbucks.
burning the weed and share only one caramel frap.
took neoprints.
we went town almost everyday,
till we got so sick of it.
we decided to choose the same sch,
ij.
and now.
everything changed.
quite drastic.
almost cant cope with it.
but survived through alr.

and to giokhui, kaiyan and xiaoling.
hohoho.
sorry abt drifting away.
but i nv forget the 3 of you okay!
sometimes i will look thru our NEOPRINTS.
i still have my braces on that time.
6yrs liao.
time flies.
thanks for the encouragement for my a levels.
meet up soon!

why am i here?
cos im done with my prelim papers.
i screwed them alr.
ytd was my last paper.
im free for the whole week.

my hair is getting long again.
TSK.

ytd was chatting with angie on the phone.
she has doubts.
abt the purpose of her existence.
who doesnt.
anyway,
just look at how fortunate all of us are.
we're not starving, we're not unwanted.
Friends and family love us.
if you want an answer to the doubts of your existence,
starting loving yourself.
we are nv satisfied with what we have.
therefore we are never happy with our life.
i was never happy too.
sometimes just need to kan kai yi dian.
ren sheng hai shi okay de.

ru guo de shi.

sometimes i just wish i dont need to hide anymore.

//runs